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Sunday, June 19, 2005

thought my birthday gonna be a boring one bt i was utterly wrong.. thanx to my good pals, i reali enjoyed my birthday.. it was the best bd i ever had..

i met ivan at city hall at 3 to meet our sec sch pals for a gathering.. as i was famished, ivan accompanied me to eat thai express n after tt we made our way to pacific coffee to meet them.. as usual, 2 of us were very blur n we couldn't find the place n walked practically 3 times up n down city link.. i swear, the shop assistant would recognize us if we continued to walk up n down again... in the end, tee yu called ivan n we asked her hw to go to the place.. finally, we arrived there EXTREMELY late.. haha..

i was very touched when they presented me with a cake which wan tian, rou hui, su cheng, tee yu, mao chong, gui ping, kin wai, kwang seng n yilun shared the cost.. they said happy birthday to me n "ordered" me to finish up the whole cake.. its been ages since i last saw them n we had a ball of a time goofing ard n taking pics...

after our gathering, i n ivan went out early as we had our own respective dnr to go too.. i went orchard point with my daddy to eat mushroom pot.. there were so many varieties of mushroon n they tasted absolutely delicious..

after dnr, i went to rush to meet wan yee, tracy, chang hong n stanley to celebrate mine n wan yee's birthday.. as it was quite early, we found seats n played cards.. we played heart attack n the person who got hit had to drink half a glass of vodka.. after a few glass, we got high n went to the dance floor.. it was damn packed man..

they gave me my present which was a top frm forever 21 n a necklace.. guys.. i reali love the present.. thanx a million....

we stayed till 2 plus den i went chinablack... the queue was damn long but we finally could enter the place.. it was my 1st time n chinablack n i admit, despite the queue, the place was fun.. even much better den devils.. haha...

at 4 plus, we went devils awhile bt i wa too tired so my fren sent me home n we talked awhile.. i finally slept at 7am..

the whole day, frm morning to night was eventful, thanx to my diff group of frens..
no words cna express hw much i enjoyed myself yesterday n the fun i had...

thanx again guys!!!!

PS: happy advanced 20th birthday wan yee... may all ur wishes come true..

here r some pics frm my sec sch gathering.. enjoy...

we at the big wheel at marina square

the onli girl among the guys.. haha

us posing at marina square against a clean white wall as the background..

the guys posing

my silly pose

my stupid idea...

another of our pose...

flew into your heart at [5:46 PM]

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Saturday, June 18, 2005

jus back frm sparks with my godsis, Miko.. been ages since i last saw her... well, her dancing is jus as good as ever.. haha..she taught me some grungester moves but i abit slow at picking it up leh.. haha..

sparks changed alot sia.. alot of xiao ah lian n xiao ah beng n everywhere ppl danced the same de.. all grungester style... today gt fight again.. thats the only thing tt has nt changed.. forever got fighting one.. police n ambulance came n when i n miko went up, i saw 4 guys with their shirts off n displaying their body arts to the police.. lol.. one of the guy had his head bandaged n his whole t shirt was filled with blood.. muz be a very bad fight.. hai.. this is one of the reasons y i seldom go sparks le.. stick to devils bar all this place better.. ppl more mature, thus leading to less fights..

today work was fine, jus tt i was very sleepy as i didnt slp the night b4.. my body couldnt adjust to the normal sleeping time le.. i can onli slp at dawn break n super active at night.. becoming nocturnal animal le...

i had to check some funds with the file manager which made my eyes even more tired.. i hate facing the com (except for playing games...)

tml gonna be a long day again.. meeting ivan at 1pm n later meeting daddy as he is bringing me out for dnr to celebrate my birthday.. at night goin rush with wan yee, tracy, chang hong they all... think i m gonna sleep in for the whole sunday..

thanx friends for wishing me happy birthday.. appreciate it alot... muackies....

flew into your heart at [3:56 AM]

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Friday, June 17, 2005

hai.. i feel fucking inferior... why things aren't the way i want it? why ppl always get the best? why people always have everything in life.. i mean, its not as if i hav nothing.. i hav gd parents, a chance to further my education, a house to live in, blah blah blah... but there are certain things i wan but nvr ever have...

i m always a failure in friendships n relationships.. friends dun stay in my life? why? is it me? even relationships r a big damn washout.. the guys tt i noe r nvr serious... i fucking hate liars man.. y cant there be honesty in a relationship? to hell with the song tong hua.. i n nvr gonna listen to it anymore.. there is nothing as true love.. nothing! zilich! (maybe its jus me, ppl ard me r happily attached..) debbie.. u r lucky man.. treasure ur relationship...

going start work in 4 hrs time n i m still sitting in front my com, dunno hw i m gonna wake up later..

jus wanna study hard for my honours n carry on my life.... i pray things will get better soon...

URGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

flew into your heart at [5:17 AM]

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Thursday, June 16, 2005

hai.... i m super sianz....... this few days practically rot at home... can see algae sprouting out le la...

went to rush last nite with YY n saw some friends.. qinghua n his friends were also there.. he wanted to noe YY sia.. haha.. gave him her no n told him to call her.. haa, he wont bother me le.. haha... saw alex, my long time friend n he was talking on the phone.. we said hello n he put up a hand to signal wait awhile bt i misinterpretated it as keep quiet.. i thought he was quarrelling with his gf so i n YY made a move 1st.. when i reched home, he called me n explained the misunderstanding.. so silly of me.. haha...

i went to play dota with a friend n we lost the war.. hai.. sianz.. i too noob le la... always kena killed.. but it was fun..

the fucking job is frustrating me... since monday i have been waiting like a fool n they keep on saying next day... i m so fed up... when can i reali start work? i n gonna give it till friday n if still cant start work, i m NOT going to wait le.. to hell with it............

this saturday is my birthday....... but its gonna be a depressing one.. nobody gonna celebrate with me.. still have to go out shopping for a friend's present.. at least i hav some company.. urgh.. i hate my birthday.. hate my life.... it sucks..... evryone has someone to celebrate.. mine leh? alone........

* sorry for raging... i m jus fucking depressed...

PS: i apologize for the crude words.. haha

flew into your heart at [4:03 PM]

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Sunday, June 12, 2005

went to PS with Dearie on friday to buy our individual father's day present.. dearie wanted to pay for me bt i insisted to pay myself.. after tt, we went to Clementi to collect my contact lens n went supermarket to buy ingredients for cooking fried rice at Dearie's hs..

surprisingly, the fried rice turned out to be not bad n dearie gave me 7 out of 10.. (i can cook leh.. haha) we lazed ard n watch tv.. after tt, dearie thought me how to play Dota... fun sia.. but i abit slow at running away frm enemies.. haha... it's reali a fun game sia, no wonder my bro can play the game for hours.. i stayed overnight at Dear's place cuz sat wanted to go IMM with Dearie n his mum de but last min she had appointment, so in the end Dearie accompanied me hm to take car n head back to his hs.. His aunt n Uncle came and we ended up playing mahjong till 3 plus in the night.. i lost $0.60. haha..

this afternoon Dearie bought "tang Yuan" for me n my family n brought it to my hs.. Sweet hor.. haha... love ya baby.. we played Dota awhile den Dearie had to go hm cuz of his probation.. later would be going to Swensen's for an early celebration of Father's day n my birthday cuz mummy wont be in town for these 2 days..

going to play Dota with dearie later after my dinner.. cant wait.. hee.. Dearie say most prob can start work le this tuesday. same company as him.. doing admin work frm 9am to 6pm n we r paid an hr $6.. not bad hor.. hope can get the job leh, i wanna work with baby.. i am also in desperate need of money.. wanna buy the Levis's Lady Style Jeans, my Guess watch n tonnes more clothes.. i also wanna do treatment for my hair n go manicure n pedicure... Urgh... i need a job ASAP..

flew into your heart at [6:54 PM]

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Thursday, June 09, 2005

met Ivan n WeiMin at orchard today for dinner.. was suppossed to eat with them but my gastrics acted up so i orderded "e Mee" n ate it at Shanny's shop first.. after meeting them, we went to Yoshinoya n walked ard Orchard talking lots of crap n literally making fools of ourselves.. we took lots of photos, even at the MRT.. though there were alot of ppl ard, but those were irrelevant at tt point of time.. ( as always, right ivan? haha) after fooling ard, we went to Mox's bar at Tanjong Pagar as Ivan's cousin, Shir Ee was going there.. for additional info, Mox' Bar is actually a gay pub bt it is very high class, with both gay n straight ppl (like us) loughing on sofas n chairs.. there were also live singing of jazz music.. altogether, it was a relatively relaxing place with great ambience.. the only drawback is tt the drinks were quite expensive.. i guess u pay for the ambience n comfort ba.. haha..

went to 7-11 for supper awhile later as WeiMin has a curfew.. we cracked lame jokes n fooled ard like small kids... we even spit saliva at each other.. disgusting right? haha.. but, it was damn FUN..

nice meeting u guys...

This r some pics of the "lame Us"

me n ivan making funny faces..

me n wei min

me n ivan while waiitng for the train

this pic is taken cuz of the number plate tt corresponds with my birthdate.. 1806, 18th of june.. nice right.. photo taken courtesy of Ivan...

flew into your heart at [6:29 PM]

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Sunday, June 05, 2005

today is me n dearie one month anniversary... we went bugis eat pastamania n went on a shopping spree.. bought 2 levis shirts.. one for dearie n one for me, another top, boxers n after tt ate italian ice cream.. yummy.. wanted to meet dearie's mum at IMM shopping de but she had an appointment so in the end we went to Clementi Central to buy my contact lens.. spent alot today.. so shiok.. haha... Dearie gave me a gold ring as an anniversary present.. same design as his one.. so sweet.. damn touched when i receive it.. Thanx baby...

Went to East Coast on Fri night to celebrate Chang Hong's birthday.. i arrived late as i went to PSB to look at the courses.. i applied for a UK degree course in general Business.. Hope the application would be successful.. so far, still didnt hear frm NTU yet, think its a goner... :(

here are some pictures frm the bbq..

me, tracy, pei yoke, wan yee n yuhui at East Coast celebrating Chang Hong's birthday

our MMIT gang

Sat morning went to the zoo with dearie, big head n his son.. didnt stay for logn as his son was sleepy.. anyway the trip wasn't wasted as i bump into my secondary school english teacher, Mdm Sue.. coincidence hor?? i mean, of all places, we can see each other in the Zoo? was glad to see her.. she is reali a gd teacher... hai.. kinda miss my sec sch days, with Huiwen n Ivan.. the fun we had n those carefree times...

My next wish..
Grad my degree course n go HK shopping with Dearie...

flew into your heart at [7:55 PM]

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Wednesday, June 01, 2005

The Staff of Tastes of Singapore at Sentosa and us

Lunch at Tastes of Singapore at Sentosa before the next scene of fliming

The fliming crew setting up the stage for the next scene

wow.. i m bushed..

Juz got back not long from a promo shoot at Sentosa.. the job was reccommended by Ivan as his cousin is working in the company.. we were mainly jus extras but this photo shoot taught me alot of things.. most importantly... DUN ever buy pirated VCDS.. fliming is damn hard work man.. we started fliming at 6am in the morning and as there were no bus to enable us to rch Sentosa by 6am for the fliming, we were sponsored cab fare down.. Ivan picked me up at my hse together with his cousin Weiming n another friend Ruada.. the whole morning was spent watching this film like more than 20 times n there were even a close up shot of me n Averil being blown by fans n pretending to get shocked by the lightning tt the director used a flashlight to imitate.. after tt, our group had to walk up n down n pretend to look interested in the exhibits.. though there were lots of retakes, it was a refreshing experience for me.. there were this "so called" main actor n actresses who were supposedly quite famous in acting as "extras" in shows n movies, n i tell u man, the girl was damn snobbish n rude.. even the crew, food court manager and all the waitresses disliked her.. haha.. there was even an elderly woman who starred in chinese shows (bt i dunno her name..) we finished filming ard 445pm n i slept at 10pm which was very early for me tt night...

today shooting was at 9am so i could slept abit longer.. the day past relatively slowly as we had to wait quite abit as the crew members arranged the lighting n set up the stage for the next scene.. this dragged on till 5pm which our official knock off time but the director asked my group to stay back for an interview till7pm.. we were paid OT n were even fed dinner.. (only Ivan will get the joke of the word "being fed") the interview was so nerve wrecking as we had to memorise lines n speak in front of the camera... after the shoot, we even went up the Carlsberg Sky Tower for Free, thanks to Aeril for asking if we could enter for free.. it was reali hilarious shooting with them.. they r a real bunch of fun friends.. haha..

reali enjoyed these 2 days of filming.. guess it gave me a greater exposure to life.. the most important i learnt is acting is nvr easy... one has to be patient n keep waiting for even several hours jus for the next scene... however, i hav the company of my lunatic n loony friends, so it wasn't too bad.. haha.. we took loads of pictures n made alot of friends at Sentosa, frm the waitresses to managers n even the attraction attendent.. n its all cuz of Averil n Ivan... damn gd PR.. haha...

i finally get the real meaning of "friends make ur life filled with laughter".....

flew into your heart at [11:58 PM]

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An IntErEsting ThouGht

Wht DoeS LovE mEan?
"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."
"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different.You just know that your name is safe in their mouth."
"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs."
"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen."
"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."