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Tuesday, December 28, 2004

it's finally over... after a huge quarrel, we broke off... maybe its jus not meant to be... i am tired of lying to myself he is the one.. what's the point? single also has its plus points... i will be strong and will live happily, if not happier.... for the sake of myself, i must and will do it....

flew into your heart at [6:44 PM]

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Saturday, December 25, 2004

Merry X'mas everyone.... yesterday dearie was working so i went out with mummy to t he library and to visit my grandfather... later i met whity to celebrate and wait for dearie and dirty to fetch us.. we went orchard walk walk and it was damn packed... whity and i both bought the same necklace for our boyfriend and i didnt know that she bought three necklaces until at sultan coffee shop she gave it to me.. so surprised.. hehe.. last night was a bit boring for me cuz i didnt get to see darling till after 12.. maybe it jus wasnt the christmas that i expected... hope next yr would be better....

flew into your heart at [1:32 PM]

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Sunday, December 19, 2004

last night was a big mess.. whity and dirty quarrelled until broke up.. den dirty say he will go ride his bike very fast and whity angry, say she is going to cross the road very fast too.. hai.. give me and dearie a big headache esp. on our anniversary... both their hp on and off and both dun wan say where they are... in the end, we spilt up to find them.. i had to lie to whity that i am alone in order to get her to meet me and dearie and horny had to lie that we quarrel in order to meet him too.. hence, went to esplanade to find her and she say wanna drink so we went rush to chill... i think rush is a gd antidote man... she cheered up and even asked me whether shld msg dirty anot... they msg each other a few times and i think the air cleared abit.. dearie managed to coax dirty down to sultan meet us but his face was so black upon seeing us.. we went fisherman to talk and that stupid horny brought us to the wrong place and we were separated frm dirty and whity.. actually also gd la, give them a chance to talk things out alone..

after many turns, we finally reached fisherman and were glad to see that at last they were holding hands... we played a few games and went hm ard 2am.. our anniversary were thus spent playing matchmaker.. haha.. dearie also bought me 2 marshmallow pillow as present and we named them small naughty and small smelly... haha...

hope they 2 wont quarrel le or not it would be another big headache....

flew into your heart at [8:29 PM]

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Saturday, December 18, 2004

today is mine and dearie 8 mths anniversary... *happie 8 mths dadi* later we would be going Malaysia to eat.. dearie working but he promised he would be home by 7 pm.. cant wait to see him.. whity and dirty quarrelled, so they wont be following us to Malaysia eat.. hope they will be all right soon....

awaiting 7 pm for my fav show and dearie to come home...

take care frens...

flew into your heart at [6:27 PM]

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Friday, December 17, 2004

the last day of the 1st week of sch...yippee.. i love friday man!! weekends are the best time to sleep late late and go out gai gai.. tml dearie and i going malaysia with whity, dirty and horny... most importantly, tml is our 8 mths anniversary... so happie... hope dearie and i will last.. i bought dearie a present le... its a bracelet that has 18 chains... so coincidence the number 18 is the same as our anniversary date and my birthday... lucky charm.. haha...

monday dearie off.. he wanna stay at home and slack.. he also promised me to do housework.. the whole house so dusty man... how i miss having a maid.. *so pampered* hehe.. dunno when can go sentosa again.. i also wanna go wild wild wet... but dearie always working.. den when he off, i have to go sch... hai.. so sian...

cant wait to graduate....

flew into your heart at [3:23 PM]

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Wednesday, December 15, 2004

this week seems to pass by so quickly... school is as usual, slack for the 1st week and lotsa projects afterwards.... last night i went ktv with dearie, whity and dirty... had so much fun though i didnt reali sang much.. they gave us another voucher again.. guess we would be making lotsa trips down in the near future... hehe.... i and whity are hitting it off pretty well and i am reali looking forward to our wet and wild trip... i am very happy these few days in school... reali wish it would last... finally last semester... i cant wait to graduate.... jia you!!!

*its not misunderstandings... its very clear cut.. it doesnt matter who's right or who's wrong.. feelings is something one cant deny each other of. jus a simple smile, a caring word or a warm invitation would make someone's day.. i am reali tired of putting in too much and get ignored in the end.. is it too hard to ask a simple request or u simply do not want to be on the same level and horizon with me? pleasing everyone is impossible but lessening it is easier... i do not mean to be mean or hurtful, jus wanna voice out my feelings.. i am tired.. i guess its over.. i reali do not wish to carry on... i dun deny my sensitivity but i reali wan to feel cared.. maybe its my fault, maybe its fate.. whatever the case, nothing more is needed.. wish u happiness and may i find mine soon....

i love you, bie and sm.... muacks....

flew into your heart at [9:15 PM]

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Monday, December 13, 2004

today was the 1st day of sch... lessons were abit boring but i guess this is sch life.. wasnt reali looking forward to sch but today helped to change my mind abit.. was kinda sad when she didnt ask me to join her group, but it was expected... i reali thought i would be all alone but they didnt leave me to fend for myself.. they included me in, though i felt bad imposing on them... my fren let me down while acquaintance gave me hope.... seriously, i have lost all hope in everything.. i have only my dearie, my parents and them... i seriously hope life would be a new beginning for me...

tml dearie would be fetching me and we would be going to party world ktv to enjoy ourselves... looking forward to it....

ps: guys, if u ever read this, thanx for being there.... i am reali grateful...

flew into your heart at [4:53 PM]

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Sunday, December 12, 2004

yesterday morning i went sentosa with dearie, dirty and whity. we met at harbourtown at 8am to eat breakfast.. its was so damn early and i was afraid we couldnt wake up so i didnt reali slept the night b4. we reached sentosa ard 930 and took the blue line bus to sunset bay... surprisingly, the sun was very strong and i was feeling so sticky and hot.. we found the perfect spot which is near the volleyball courts and the shelter even had hanger for us to hang clothes.. dearie and dirty went to borrow a pump for the float and i and whity talked. i didnt want to go into the water so soon but when dearie and dirty came back with the float, they started splashing us and soon the splash war started.. i and whity won.. haha... we played ard in the water with the float and had girls talk with whity.. suddenly we seem quite close.. after awhile we came out of the water and i felt very uncomfortable.. so sticky and the sand kept sticking to my legs.. we played in the water again and went to bathe alone when it started to drizzle..

after lunch at harbourfront, dearie and i took a cab home and i slept while he met dirty to take his bike... after my show, we went party world ktv and at 11pm, we went fisherman village, where teo aka horny, another of dearie and dirty friend joined us.. we played pool, 'taidi', police and theives and heart attack... we sent dirty and whity home as their bike tyre punctured.. we reached home ard 3 plus and i was very exhausted and slept till now.. haha...

i had fun yesterday and never had i laugh so much b4.. tml sch starting le.. wonder how it would be like... reali dread sch starting.. i hate going there, hate to see them, hate to force myself to mingle ard with them... urgh!!!

hope this last semester would go smoothly...

flew into your heart at [5:45 PM]

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Friday, December 10, 2004

last night was horrible.. i went rush with yy, and not only she asked me to pick her, she didnt even waited outside when i specifically told her to.. in the end i had to wait by the roadside while she literally STROLLED and i reali mean strolled to my car.. i was so fucking mad... when we reached mohd sultan not long, she called this guy friend and ask me go devils.. ok, fine, we went.. paid stupid parking fee for 2 places and when we reached there, we didnt go in straight.. why? cuz her fren was drunk.. and i dunno y we sat outside for so long.. when we finally went in, we looked for her fren and guess where he was? at the locker there hugging a girl and looking very gone.. i asked her want to dance, and she jus stood there.. i was so fed up and tired that i say i wanted to go.. she followed me, but when we were at the car park, she saw her another fren and say want to go up again.. this time i was very determined and said no.. so in the end she wanted to go eat and we went with her fren go eat.. by then, it was already 4 plus in the morning and i was so damn sleepy. her fren took forever to eat, and when he finally say the magic words, 'if u r tired, u 2 can go 1st'.. i opened my mouth to say ok, night, but she said, 'its all right, we r not tired, slowly eat'. i wanted to bang my head.. my eyes reali cant open.. it reali seems she treats me as a driver and not as a sister as she loves to say...i reali know, how much she cares for me man.. i swear man, i am not going to be her driver again, and if possible steer clear of her... urgh!!!

ok, enough of the horrible stuff.. today i went for the trial facial with shanny and we were almost cocered to buy $300 over of goods.. both of us came up with loads of crap and left to orchard to shop.. throughout the journey, we were furiously giggling away at our crap that we came up with that we alighted at somerset instead of orchard.. i had great fun today despite the nightmare i had last night..

looking forward to the sentosa trip with dearie, dirty and whity this sat...

flew into your heart at [4:42 AM]

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Wednesday, December 08, 2004

so tired.. jus came back from shopping with shanny at bugis... we each bought one bra cuz buy 2 cheaper.. see.. thats another plus point of having a fren.. can go shopping together, share ups and downs, and share to buy things together.. we ate cha siew rice and she brought me to eat ice cream.. so nice.. yum! yum!

i rushed home to bring mummy to temple but she said i came home too late, dun wan go le.. hai.. den i shld spend more time walk walk with shanny.. nvm, tml i meeting her at orchard walk walk den go facial...wonder how it would be like..cant wait.. hehe...

jus now yy call me ask me go rush with her 2 sisters... den i ask need to send them home anot, guess whats her reply? "of course la" oh my god!! i am not a driver leh.. one fren live in Sengkang, the other live in Tanjong Katong.. she cares abt them, den wht abt me? who is going to pay the petrol? me leh.. not her.. seriously, sometimes i wonder y did i know such friend? i always thought friendship was pure and cares for each other, but in our case, i feel like i am being used? why? why? am i stupid to continue being friends with her? she only uses me, not reali cares for me.. i hate it.. reali do.. i guess i would be better of having enemies instead of her as a fren.. stupid me....

flew into your heart at [9:04 PM]

so late le.. but i cant sleep.. how??? dearie watching tv.. i know he's tired, but he wont slp till i do... but i reali cant slp leh.. very wide awake...

today i planned to go to the gym at seletar country club de, but woke up late.. in the end i and dearie went to parkway library and den went tampines mall meet dirty and whity.. we ate KFC family feast and were given a KFC float... eat until i almost vomit.. damn full ah... after that went fisherman village to chit chat and relax.. we even played pool.. me and dearie one team and whity and dirty another.. we won.. haha... after that we drank purple ice [some kind of alcoholic drink] which is very nice, tastes abit like ribena.. den we played heart attack, police and theives and 'taidi'.. had so much fun.. laughed till my stomach aches.. guess we made a new group of frens.. will be hanging out with them quite often le.. planned to go sentosa this sat morn if dearie can change to night shift... hope can.. *prays*

Sze mei coming back tml.. so long didnt see her.. miss all the gossips we shared.. will be going clubbing and meeting up soon.. life is starting to be not sian le, but sch is starting.. why? why? why? nvm, i am going to enjoy the remaining of my hols... u guys too!!

mummy coming back later at10am.. so happie.. can see mummy le.. haha...

flew into your heart at [3:10 AM]

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Monday, December 06, 2004

its a rainy day today.. i jus love it when it rains especially when i not going out.. the whole place so windy and cooling.. no need on air con.. reminds me of Tasmania.. hai... this reminds me of Aussie again... how i wish could turn back time and go holidaying again..

i slept at 3plus last night but woke up at 10 to wake dearie up.. den i tried to go back to sleep but yy called me awile later.. so sleepy yor.. today got alot of shows to watch until 1130pm and dearie comes home.. so dun think will be so bored.. going out tml with dearie.. cant wait..

7 more days to sch reopen.. sian....

flew into your heart at [5:20 PM]

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Sunday, December 05, 2004

a thousand miles...

today is so boring.. no shows to watch de.. i woke up at 4 in the afternoon and played neopets till now.. dearie supposed to have 2 hrs break one but in the end the boss say that they were short of ppl so dearie cant company me.. but dearie so sweet.. still sneak out and buy food for me...silly baby..

last night i and dearie went jalan kayu with his friends to eat and talked.. we showed them our australia photos and since then they call dearie smelly cuz we wrote notes on the album and i call dearie as smelly.. den we each create nicknames for each other.. i am called naughty, dearie is called smelly, francis is called dirty and his gf is called whity cuz she very fair.. we talked crap until 3 plus den went home... dearie was so tired that after pat him awhile he slept le.. like small piggy like that.. haha..

next week on dearie off day, maybe we going Sentosa or go shopping again.. i jus love to shop with dearie cuz he gives good suggestions and not everything also say nice.. i also wanna eat rice table, sushi, marche.. oh dear.. at this rate, i will reali grow fat.. haha..

few days ago, lawrence call me and say snowy die le.. so sad.. i didnt even get to see him for the last time.. i reali wanna have a dog for my own, esp. like snowy like that.. he damn cute..

i have been listening to the song, a thousand miles for ages.. its so nice.. i still rem. when i 1st heard the song on the show White Chicks, i fell in love with it. den when i heard it again in Australia, i swear to d/l the song.. its reali nice.. so guys, go and d/l it ba... strongly recommended.. i am going to watch my fair princess le.. tata

*PS: Bie, hope u r better le.. love ya.. muacks...

flew into your heart at [6:52 PM]

new skin, new beginning

is my new blog skin nice??? hehe.. so happie.. my buddy from sec sch, debbie helped me to create a new skin for my blog and taught me how to use the different settings.. thanx mummy!!

today was so bored.. slept the whole day while dearie went to work.. jus now daddy cooked spag.. yummy!! now waiting for dearie to finish work and bring me out.. he say maybe go chalet or music underground as one of our friend's birthday today...

i am reali bored at home.. every day nothing to do.. wish that can go school but also dreading that day to come.. hai.. i am so indecisive...

anyway.. hope that my life will be a new beginning jus like my new blog..

thanx one again, bie..muacks

flew into your heart at [2:11 PM]

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Saturday, December 04, 2004

new blog

hmm.. kinda bored with my previous blog..so decided to create a new blogspot with the help of my brother... today is quite boring.. slept the whole day and now i am famished.. waiting for dearie to come back and bring me out...

will improve my blog skin later.. tata

flew into your heart at [12:37 PM]

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An IntErEsting ThouGht

Wht DoeS LovE mEan?
"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."
"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different.You just know that your name is safe in their mouth."
"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs."
"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen."
"When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love."